weekly weigh-in no. 1

one would think i would've rushed home and posted my first week success last night, but hubby had dinner ready again and asked me to watch TV with him. so, i agreed. after all he had cooked dinner the previous two nights.

so, my first weekly weigh in result:

-3

i was very happy with this number. now, my home scales said i was down -4.8, but - since i weighed in officially at my first WW meeting last Tuesday, I will go with their readings.

wonderful. 

about my first meeting, i might try the earlier meeting or the meeting on Saturday morning. the meeting i attended was an older crowd. all nice enough, the leader included, but i need someone that is so excited and motivational, they could host an info-mercial. i need that to be successful. my leader from years ago was from Argentina, and she was the best. i sucessfully lost 40 lbs and didn't miss a meeting. i heard a little rumor that she is still in the area, perhaps i might find her.

this week's meeting was on motivation. how i needed to hear this. they talked about not loosing sight on how we feel when we first start our journey. the excitement. the feeling when our clothes start fitting better. the happiness that comes from compliments from people noticing our efforts. the excitement when we have during our first losses. each week we are not guaranteed a loss, some weeks, although everything is done perfectly, there could be a small gain. but if we remember the successes and the way all the positives make us feel, we will continue to stay focused.

this week, i will continue writing everything down. i've

really done great with this. journaling your food is the key.

i will make healthy choices this week.

Breakfast yesterday, Fiberone Poptart

3 points

lunch yesterday, was a orange and turkey on wheat.

6 points

Dinner, eh I didn't count points. I figured after a week well done, I splurged and used some of my weekly flex points.

My two weekly goals:

1. Staying motivated
2. Drink water.

confession no. 12

i am really thirsty.  but first,

i had a perfect day today. perfect. perfect. perfect. if i could actually DO a cartwheel, i would so do one. but, i'll save that for later.

something i have found myself stumbling over, are drinks. i am always thirsty. i haven't yet aquired the ability to drink water all day. in fact, i really need to work on that. but, i find myself drinking Coke Zero's alot. they are calorie and sugar free, yes. and zero points.... but are they really ok to drink, like 2-3 a day? i also am in love with chocolate milk. 8oz. of milk, 2 scoops of chocolate chilled over ice, yummy. but, i feel so guilty for wasting points on THAT. i try to justify it as "i need the calcium" but, 5 points for a drink? gah, i dunno. note: i don't like regular white milk unless served over ice and while washing down a peanut butter sandwich, which is not currently on my Points radar; so that's the whole drama with that.

so, this is my biggest struggle. maybe i will try new flavors of Crystal Lite. it's the whole fruity-water thing that i can't get past, such as Propel. maybe this is a good alternative:

caffeine and sugar free + mango & passion fruit = happy tastebuds.

0 Points

or

and maybe

but i don't really know if the Peach Passion is Caffeine or sugar free. but the thought of a big 'ol glass of ice and fresh peach slices. heavenly. 

so, be cautious of those drinks [and condiments i've discovered] - you don't really want to waste points on that, do ya?

confession no. 11

i kind-of, sort-of, had an ok day...and i'm happy with that.

let me explain.

insert, evidence A.

a big....

hot...

mess.....



fried porkchops

and the country spread.

fried....

buttered....

salted....





how it all began. we got a dinner invite to the in-laws earlier today. score! food and family.
but i instantly got nervous.
i knew the hot messes momma Jay cooks up and with this being my 5th day on plan,
i did not know how i could exit out gracefully, but i had only had 3 points at breakfast and so
figured i would be safe with my remaining points.
we get there, and daddy Jay wants me to make a home made apple pie.
what? no! but i did and it was pretty friendly, made with fresh canned apples and spices, a dab of butter and a splash of sugar. not disastrous. i actually got to bake my pork chop and scooped out my serving of potato salad before the mayo was added. i tried my best.

eh, not so much a hot mess here.







i did sneak a few bites of the pie and a bite of mashed potatoes. and i could've totally said no to the really bad stuff, but for my first weekend and my first big food event on plan, i was proud of myself.

i think i have this down. see, i can do this.

confession no. 10

surgery is no longer an option.

in 2005, i wanted to get lapband. i began the process but our insurance discontinued coverage. i began the process again in late 2009. i went through all the required testing and all the office visits. i was so excited, i was going to be healthy. i was going to be skinny. but, we were required to take 3 pre-op informational classes, before a surgery date would be scheduled.

first, i was always borderline eligible; i could not loose any weight or i would not qualify for surgery. second, i kind of was scared. this was kind of a big deal. but i had mentally prepared myself and i was ready. but when i walked in the first class, i realized that perhaps this was an easy way out. looking around the room, i didn't need a life altering operation, when all i needed to do was eat healthy and exercise. note: with surgery, you have to eat healthy and exercise.

i left knowing i had to do this. i had to stop making excuses. i had to make many changes, that would allow for a healthy lifestyle.

this is where my journey started.

confession no. 9

weight watchers rock!

these are daily confessions of my personal weight loss journey. to catch you up to speed, i've had a weight loss blog since October and after i gave it a fresh new look, i decided to move it over to connect with my personal blog. i figured i would do better at updating.

i start by giving myself a [huge] pat on the back. i finally re-joined weight watchers this week. after weeks of "i'm going to" and weeks of only seeing the scale slowly inch up higher and higher and after months of writing excuse after excuse, i did it. and, on an even happier note, i have successfully made it past the "first-three-days-are-the-roughest" challenge. we all can relate, right? how many times have you said, "I'll start over again Monday"? only to repeat yourself come, eh, Wednesday?

the program has changed greatly since 2004, in which i lost 40 pounds, by just simply following the plan. i maintained my weightloss for over two years. this really is the greatest plan ever and why it took me three years to go back, i dunno. yes, im mad at myself for that. but, im doing great. and im doing it with my mom. she is down 16, in 5 weeks. fabulous motivation!

i kind-of-sort-of snuck and weighed yesterday morning and was down a little. [smile] my weekly weigh-in day is Tuesday, at 6:30p.

you can join now for free, by going here, through march.

confession no. 8

good, good, better.

i've not done great. but i've not done bad.
maybe i've not really done anything at all.
it's always excuses.
i see a pattern.
i know what i need.
1. support
2. motivation
3. a buddy
i have got to [insert will] make it to weight watchers this week.
i will be surrounded by support and motivated buddies.
perfect.

confession no. 7

i suck. bad.

this blog entry is embarrassing.
but to be held accountable, i shall confess.
i have done horrible since my last post. i have only gained and feel ridiculous. if i had to blame something other than myself, i would direct it toward my eight-months at the hospital. food was easily available, all day long...and after 3, very long twelve-hour days, i would come home and hit the couch and not really move from there. i always wonder and have asked several times....how i can be doing so good, loosing weight, getting compliments, feeling on top of the world - and it slowly comes crashing down.
with all other aspects of my life back to normal, happy, and wonderful - i have made a new commitment to loose 50 lbs this year, 30 by my anniversary in April. that's obtainable.
i did hit the gym a couple of times with one of my bf's a few weeks ago, but since, neither of us have been back.
with a definite change in life and lifestyle, i am ready to accomplish this.