confession no. 10

surgery is no longer an option.

in 2005, i wanted to get lapband. i began the process but our insurance discontinued coverage. i began the process again in late 2009. i went through all the required testing and all the office visits. i was so excited, i was going to be healthy. i was going to be skinny. but, we were required to take 3 pre-op informational classes, before a surgery date would be scheduled.

first, i was always borderline eligible; i could not loose any weight or i would not qualify for surgery. second, i kind of was scared. this was kind of a big deal. but i had mentally prepared myself and i was ready. but when i walked in the first class, i realized that perhaps this was an easy way out. looking around the room, i didn't need a life altering operation, when all i needed to do was eat healthy and exercise. note: with surgery, you have to eat healthy and exercise.

i left knowing i had to do this. i had to stop making excuses. i had to make many changes, that would allow for a healthy lifestyle.

this is where my journey started.